失恋固然辛苦

但爱恋呢？他是设么？

暗恋呢？它的感觉是设么？

而苦恋呢？苦恋的滋味你可否尝过？

你又是如何度过的呢？

费心

费思

费力

感受了一切一切

崩溃

在逃往里，面对现实。

只能走开。逼着，试着，反复的提醒自己

愿她能以这每次每次痛苦的逃开，更加强自己的勇敢与抵抗力...

... 直到她没感觉为止吧...

27jan2011

9.15pm

Interesting Irony

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this post was meant to be up on 13dec2010.

~~~

Which is Sadder?

Wishing You Haven't Done Something

or

Wishing You Did Something?

~~~

She's never good with departures.

Silent tears trickled down her cheeks.

Certain things doesnt change.

~~~

IRONY

loving you is so easy, yet it feels so hard to love you.

~~~

do i love u? yes, i do.

do i adore u? no, not necessarily.

do i care for u? of cos i do.

do i like you? make me

~~~

伤感的爱情是美丽的。

应为能从中领悟到人最深处的感受...

所以谢谢您给与我的伤

痛！

~~~

it doesn't mean anything( )

?.？。?.？。

量子物理与生活

人的大脑只会促存自己可以辨识的事物
也就是说，我们的大脑只能看得到我们认为可以的事物

举例来说，当哥伦布发现美洲新陆地的时
陆地上这些印地安人的眼中根本看不到哥伦布的船
那是应为他们没有看过船
在他们大脑意识中，没有船的概念

如果大脑无法辨识
即使这样东西就在眼前，你也看不见

当你坠入爱河的时候
总会有一个人忽然而且有刻意现在你眼前
你在人群中，总是一眼就能看到他（她）
应为大脑辨识出他（她）的存在
所以你的眼光会不由自主注释着他（她）
就算对方没有告诉你
即使只是存在于同一个空间里
你也会感受到对方的存在
甚至刻意做出某些动作来强化自己在对方大脑的辨识

所以‘爱’是一种发现
发现本来就存在的那个人

Quantum Physics and Life

the human brain works on a recognitive mechanism
this means that what we see is what we percieved as having existance

take for example, when Columbus founded and arrived at New America
the aborigines were not able to see his ship
this is because they have never seen a ship before
nor have any knowledge of the existance of ships

one would not be able to 'see' something/someone
even if he/she/it is right in front
because one has no recognition of the particular existance

when you fall in love
isn't there a person who seemed to appealed constantly to you?
that you see only him(her) in crowd
because the brain recognises his(her) existance
so your eyes instinctively picks him(her) out
Despite him/her not making known that he/she is there
you can actually feel the other's existance when in the same space
sometimes, one performs certain acts
to strengthen the knowledge of one's existance in his/her brain

Love is a Discovery
to discover someone who already exists.

?.?.?

你曾经爱过人吗
真的要将一个人从心里完全删除，
那只完全不喜欢才做得到。
一旦喜欢上一个人
不管是放弃或是坚持
那都是由不得自己的

一个人的心是很复杂的
我的心复杂到有好几百种
有的叫我期待
有的叫我割舍
有的叫我放弃
有的又叫我勇敢

你要我仔细看看自己的心
但是我连哪一颗心是对的，都不知道
你了解这种感觉吗？


have you ever liked a person before?
to let go of the person and not think of him/her again
it can only be done if you've never liked the person
once you love a person,
it doesn't matter if you're letting him/her go
or pulling him/her close
the decision cannot be controlled by yourself

a person's heart is very complicated
my heart is complexly layered
it would whisper hope
it would tell me to cut it out
sometimes it says give up
other times to be brave

you want me to look deeper into my heart
but i don't know which part of it is the right one.
do you understand how this feels?

？。？。？

she loves him.
she see him
and always picks him out.
but does he see her?
can he feel it too?

qualcuno

有人

“那个人
有那么棒吗?”
“当你知道那个人真正的样子时，你可否还会喜欢他（她）？”
pls.. don't say this.
don't tell me this.


***
"that person..

i ache when i see him(her), and i ache when i don't see him(her)
i'm miserable when he(she) is here, and i'm miserable when he(she) is not
i'm miserable when he(she) smiles at me and i'm miserable when he(she) smiles at others

my name..

when he(she) calls my name, i'm miserable
if he(she) doesn't call my name, i'm miserable

As long as the earth doesn't swallow me up this instant
i will continue.. to be miserable

but i rather be/have him(her) here
then i can act like i can't stand him(her)
that would be better than not being/ having him(her) here.

-私のguai-

现在你明白了吧。

What a girl wants

-nabbed frm another blog-

I want a boy who will move the hair away from my eyes, and then kiss me. Who will hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. A boy who will sing to me at random moments. Who lets me sleep on his chest. I want a guy who will tell his family and friends all about me. Bring me soup or orange juice when I’m sick. I want a boy who is more goofy than romantic, but knows the right things to say at the right times. I want a boy who will call me 3 times a day if he went away. A boy who will apologize for calling too much, and no matter how many times I tell him its okay, he’d still do it. A boy who will let me gossip to him and just smile and agree with everything I say. A boy who will throw stuffed animals at me when I acted dumb and then jump on me and kiss me a million times. Who will bet kisses on who could beat who on at game. Who makes fun of me just to make me laugh. A boy who will surprise me with 25 cent ring and we could have contest of how far we can spit our gum. Who will take me to the park, put his hands around my waist and give me big bear hugs all the time. A boy who will kiss my neck, just to have a reason to tell me how much he loves my new perfume. I want a boy who, at night, who will dance in his pajamas with me. A boy who will take pictures in photo booths with me, someone who will never turn down a trip to the lake and who will play tag on the beach with me. A boy who could sit with me on the kitchen floor and eat sandwiches. Who will kiss me in the pouring rain. I want a boy who would try to teach me how to play the guitar, even if we just end up laughing at each other. I want a boy who will run his fingers through my hair, share his lollipops with me, and get along with all of my friends. Someone who would never be afraid to say I love you in front of his friends and someone who would argue with me about silly things just to make up. I want a boy who will take me to Target to just make fun of some of the stuff there. Someone who will kiss me at midnight on New Years and who will make funny faces at me when I’m on the phone. I want a boy who will count stars with me and be friends with my family. I want a boy who will stay home with me on a Friday night just to help me make dinner and watch movies together under the same blanket. Someone who will squirt water guns at me in the house after I’ve got him soaked. I want a boy who looks me the eye and tell me something serious, that was also funny and make me promise not to laugh. A boy who could make me laugh like no one else can. I want a boy who will hold me closer than normal when I’m sick, and would play with my hair. But mostly I want a boy who is my best friend and will always be there for me.

Chance(d) Meeting

she left the creative cube theatre.
her mood? not exactly good. but she wouldn't say it's bad either.
she doesn't how and what to feel...
(happy for others or despair for herself)

she walked aimlessly.

people passed her.
she passed people.

she wonders about the phrase 'chance meeting'

• "Who is the person that just walked pass?" "Will he/she become a celebrity, the future Fann Wong?"
• "Who the hell bumped into me?" "Will i go to school the next day and learning that he/she would to be my new teacher?"
• "Who had just brushed pass my shoulders?" "Will I meet he/she again someday?" "Will he/she then become friends with me?" "Will he/she eventually becomes my significant other half?"(what a consolation to singles reading this =p)
• "Have i met my best friend even before we think we first met each other?" "Could it be in the MRT or bus and that we were merely strangers that is part of the crowd?"
• "Isn't that *Tom?" "What a coincidence to see him here!" "Is it really coincidence?" "Does fate play a part in this?"
• etc,etc.
  

Various Scenarios,
Countless Questions,
... ...

ONE answer.

-CHANCE MEETING-

she wonders again.
" have i already met him? "


*naming is random.

生病也可以是一种逃避

好久没blog了。大家还好吧？
但愿如此。
因为本人已感冒生病了... 放心放心，it's not Swine flu.
Currently, i am resting at home, doing nothing.
'cept maybe thinking, that's about the only other thing i do other than reading.

《生病也可以是一种逃避》
这不是一首歌，也不是一本书。
只不过令本人感触许多的句子。
不用说，让我会想出这么一句是因病而起。

第一个念头：逃避
逃避的意思是什么？
它是躲开让人不愿或不敢接触的事物。

第二个念头：Irony
其实，逃避的事物根本就是自己原本喜爱的。
那为什么要逃呢？
应为太常接触，而腻了。
但，有时候原因是厌倦了被事物伤害。
如此的深爱、放不下，却又把不得想避开。

第三个念头：Definition
我指的是舞蹈啦。
（this is called a dance journal for a reason)
because i feel it does applies to many dancers alike.

第四个念头：另一个定义
我问自己：“Is it Just dance?”
是吗？

汇欣samsam