as if for nothing.?!,

she didn't know

she wasn't sure

but somehow she followed

followed her emotions

“回忆是折磨人的东西”

这（那）一刻是个多么的美好的回忆

但这（那）一刻却会（已）是个恶劣的回忆

"I have a dream"

“梦”

只想把这一切当作是个梦

AllForNothing(?)

She realises that she lives(is living) in the past.

Time had somehow stopped.

because she hasnt been able to live in the present.

unable to live the current moment fully and taking it real.

Realisation!

- is it a dream？

- emotions. it is alive. there's no need to deny it of its existance.

-all for research?(.)

失恋固然辛苦

但爱恋呢？他是设么？

暗恋呢？它的感觉是设么？

而苦恋呢？苦恋的滋味你可否尝过？

你又是如何度过的呢？

费心

费思

费力

感受了一切一切

崩溃

在逃往里，面对现实。

只能走开。逼着，试着，反复的提醒自己

愿她能以这每次每次痛苦的逃开，更加强自己的勇敢与抵抗力...

... 直到她没感觉为止吧...

27jan2011

9.15pm

Interesting Irony

twitter on blogger

this post was meant to be up on 13dec2010.

~~~

Which is Sadder?

Wishing You Haven't Done Something

or

Wishing You Did Something?

~~~

She's never good with departures.

Silent tears trickled down her cheeks.

Certain things doesnt change.

~~~

IRONY

loving you is so easy, yet it feels so hard to love you.

~~~

do i love u? yes, i do.

do i adore u? no, not necessarily.

do i care for u? of cos i do.

do i like you? make me

~~~

伤感的爱情是美丽的。

应为能从中领悟到人最深处的感受...

所以谢谢您给与我的伤

痛！

~~~

save me!

我怎么会变这样？

那，是我的挡箭牌， 是我设下的防范。

想要逃脱

却舍不得离开

为何当时我们没有对彼此说呢？

是谁错了？

错，在哪里？

是命运在作弄吗？

我快要受不了了。

受不了对彼此的伤害。

明明关心你

明明想靠近

却没有勇气承认

没有勇气接近你

但，相信我，相信我想对你说的真心话：

我真的好喜欢你。真的真的。从以前就爱上了。

如果你受伤了，我为你感到心痛

当你伤心时，我为你掉泪

如果你觉得落寞，我会陪着你

不管你做什么，我都会默默的支持你

就算你不知道也无所谓

原因很简单：我爱你。

对不起，请原谅我。

原谅我没勇气面对。

it doesn't mean anything( )

?.？。?.？。

量子物理与生活

人的大脑只会促存自己可以辨识的事物
也就是说，我们的大脑只能看得到我们认为可以的事物

举例来说，当哥伦布发现美洲新陆地的时
陆地上这些印地安人的眼中根本看不到哥伦布的船
那是应为他们没有看过船
在他们大脑意识中，没有船的概念

如果大脑无法辨识
即使这样东西就在眼前，你也看不见

当你坠入爱河的时候
总会有一个人忽然而且有刻意现在你眼前
你在人群中，总是一眼就能看到他（她）
应为大脑辨识出他（她）的存在
所以你的眼光会不由自主注释着他（她）
就算对方没有告诉你
即使只是存在于同一个空间里
你也会感受到对方的存在
甚至刻意做出某些动作来强化自己在对方大脑的辨识

所以‘爱’是一种发现
发现本来就存在的那个人

Quantum Physics and Life

the human brain works on a recognitive mechanism
this means that what we see is what we percieved as having existance

take for example, when Columbus founded and arrived at New America
the aborigines were not able to see his ship
this is because they have never seen a ship before
nor have any knowledge of the existance of ships

one would not be able to 'see' something/someone
even if he/she/it is right in front
because one has no recognition of the particular existance

when you fall in love
isn't there a person who seemed to appealed constantly to you?
that you see only him(her) in crowd
because the brain recognises his(her) existance
so your eyes instinctively picks him(her) out
Despite him/her not making known that he/she is there
you can actually feel the other's existance when in the same space
sometimes, one performs certain acts
to strengthen the knowledge of one's existance in his/her brain

Love is a Discovery
to discover someone who already exists.

?.?.?

你曾经爱过人吗
真的要将一个人从心里完全删除，
那只完全不喜欢才做得到。
一旦喜欢上一个人
不管是放弃或是坚持
那都是由不得自己的

一个人的心是很复杂的
我的心复杂到有好几百种
有的叫我期待
有的叫我割舍
有的叫我放弃
有的又叫我勇敢

你要我仔细看看自己的心
但是我连哪一颗心是对的，都不知道
你了解这种感觉吗？


have you ever liked a person before?
to let go of the person and not think of him/her again
it can only be done if you've never liked the person
once you love a person,
it doesn't matter if you're letting him/her go
or pulling him/her close
the decision cannot be controlled by yourself

a person's heart is very complicated
my heart is complexly layered
it would whisper hope
it would tell me to cut it out
sometimes it says give up
other times to be brave

you want me to look deeper into my heart
but i don't know which part of it is the right one.
do you understand how this feels?

？。？。？

she loves him.
she see him
and always picks him out.
but does he see her?
can he feel it too?

Oh no.. It’s been sometime since she felt like that!

Hasn’t experience loneliness for quite awhile now..

She knew she had grown accustomed to (read: reliant on) the jollity all around her. (much to her dislike)

· Special thanks to double Ds and double Ss n all u wonderful people of Lasalle Dance 09/10 for keeping her company these past months) and she loves/loved/‘s loving every moment with these people..

· wished dhee could have join all of them on d last makan session. In her opinion, dhee n sop r d funniest and craziest ppl she knows. They should meet each other.. right drea? Can u imagine d madness?

Out n alone..(part i)

How she reminisced the nostalgic feeling of having d special friend(s) window shop at Bugis Street..

Remember the old slogan?

“Cheap Cheap, Good Good, last Long Long”

How she missed the random meals at Bugis Junction/street/iluma...

Remember how chillin’ could simply having a drink at Starbucks?

Those times filled with bitchy business, tears and laughters and of course, Encouragements!!!

Out and alone..(part ii)

Even numbers everywhere..

She’s d odd one out..

How she longed for someone.. ..

***

It’s all coming back to me now..

Singing to familiar sad tunes,

Strolling along familiar lanes,

all these mornings, afternoons,

and evenings of memories remains.

(okay, this is quite lame)

qualcuno

有人

“那个人
有那么棒吗?”
“当你知道那个人真正的样子时，你可否还会喜欢他（她）？”
pls.. don't say this.
don't tell me this.


***
"that person..

i ache when i see him(her), and i ache when i don't see him(her)
i'm miserable when he(she) is here, and i'm miserable when he(she) is not
i'm miserable when he(she) smiles at me and i'm miserable when he(she) smiles at others

my name..

when he(she) calls my name, i'm miserable
if he(she) doesn't call my name, i'm miserable

As long as the earth doesn't swallow me up this instant
i will continue.. to be miserable

but i rather be/have him(her) here
then i can act like i can't stand him(her)
that would be better than not being/ having him(her) here.

-私のguai-

现在你明白了吧。